Hey everyone- I’m Alexandra & I’m 23 years old. I started my weight loss journey about 8 years ago. I never stuck with it until May 2017.
Now that I am about 4 months into this journey I can fully reflect on my experiences. I wanted to make a blog, not only to hold myself accountable- but to share the details that you might not find on my instagram account (@dear_skol_ww).
According to the BMI, I have been ‘obese’ for about most of my adult life. This scares me, and this is a lot of the reason I felt such an urge to continue with this journey this time around. I was so worried that the next time I went to the doctor for a check up that they would tell me I was pre-diabetic or I was diabetic. So instead of hearing the news that I had been dreading- I refused to go to the doctor.. I didn’t want to have the same conversation about my weight and how I needed to do something about it. I was embarrassed and not ok in my skin. At this time of my life, I was extremely negative about myself- to myself. I constantly put myself down and felt sorry for the way I was feeling.
I had started doing Weight Watchers again in about January. I had done WW in the past, yet never followed the plan or go to the meetings. Instead, I would tell people I went to the meetings, and sit in my car and eat fast food. Then I would say I lost or gained random amounts of weight. I was lying and feeling dishonest to myself and to so many people who love me. That is no way to feel… So on May 17, 2018, I actually went to a meeting and stepped on the scale. I was at my highest weight (196.6 lbs). I was horrified and shocked. I didn’t know that I had been capable of gaining so much weight. I am 5’2 and ‘big boned’ which is an excuse I used for allowing myself to be ok with being larger. I left that meeting crushed. I was sick to my stomach about all of my past actions. My binging 50 Dunkin’ Donuts in one sitting, ordering in carb heavy foods and of course: fast food.
That night, when I got home- I wiped those tears off of my face and promised myself that I had to get my act together- Or I will be at risk for disease and many problems in my everyday living. I started thinking about one day having a child and how I wouldn’t want to have a strained relationship with my child or a difficult pregnancy. I thought about one day getting married and feeling horrible in my dress. I thought about every day activity- what if I have a hard time walking up and down stairs? I was done. I was done with my habits and my lifestyle was about to seriously change.
I started going to a gym, going 2-3 times a week. I followed the weight watcher plan, I got a Fitbit and started joining challenges every day to keep myself motivated & I started my fitness Instagram. Since May 17th- I have lost 30.8 pounds, feel more confident than I have in my life- I am happier and MUCH more active. I want to create this blog to help me feel true to myself. I want to help others stay accountable too! I find that the community on instagram is INCREDIBLE. I have a long way to go until I reach my goal- But I know that If I keep up this plan- going to the gym (I go almost everyday now!), that I will be successful.
If you read all of that- I really appreciate your support. This hasn’t been an easy journey and it is most definitley not easy to pour out my heart on this blog. But I hope it will give me the motivation, accountibilty, inspiration and closure that I have been searching for.
WELCOME TO MY JOURNEY!
BEFORE & AFTER FACE TO FACE COMPARISON-
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